From a mother, feeling lost.
Standing by the window, she saw her husband drive out of the house angrily, as usual, all they seem to do these days is fight. On her part, she is not even angry she is more frustrated than anything else. She has no more energy for anger, to be honest all she wants to do is cry.
I mean how did she get to this point anyways, she will admit that it seems she is the reason for his constant irritation. After three children, God knows she loves her children to the moon and back and of course she would give anything for them, and she has given up a lot for them. She is not complaining but, she really wants to do something for herself, by herself.
Kunle just doesn’t seem to want to hear that she wants to do something else other than be his wife and mother to the children. Financially they seem to be doing well she thinks. She really doesn’t know, or maybe she just doesn’t care to know, Kunle has been the major decision maker when it comes to their finances. I mean he is her husband and she trusts him, or…He is her husband she repeats to herself, and that would just have to be enough for her. Does wanting to do something for herself mean she does not trust him? Oh whatever! She trusts him, Simple!
She walked back to the living room, sat down and started scrolling through the channels absent-mindedly. When did she get it all wrong? She wondered. She had great ideas while in school, she was that girl that everyone would come to when they needed that GREAT Idea. She was just full of them, it was her God-given talent. Oh yes she had ideas, and she was a go-getter back then too. Nowadays she still has some ideas left, how to execute them in her reality of today is what puzzles her. Wake up, get the children ready for school, take them to school with the driver, one can’t really trust drivers alone. She gets back home and she just gets busy doing everything and specifically nothing! [Read: Too Busy For The Children?]
So what changed. Does marriage really change everything, or was she the one that allowed herself to get carried away? She had thought she would get married, give birth, and start building herself as soon as possible. Well she has been married for 8 years, given birth to the children but just has not quite “started” with herself yet. She sighed deeply, and sadly! Maybe when she’s old and grey, she chuckled at herself.
To top it all Kunle is not saying anything, who can blame the man, he has a lot on his own plate and cannot understand how to make her “happier”. He seems to have given up trying to cheer up his depressed wife. As far as he is concerned what does all this “finding herself” mean? Isn’t being a mother enough?
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